Life be lifing...

Transparency report, life is a bitch sometimes. She just does not let up. I think every women has said, "When things settle down....," and then they never do. It actually gets more hectic as time goes on. Lately in my life I have been struggling, "down bad," as the Genzers say. I have not been pouring into myself, family, my blog, or anything else I may want to do. Currently I am working full time, in school full time, a mother, wife and many other titles. Yet, I find myself coming up short at the end of each day. The guilt is tremendous and no one understands more than us women and especially mothers. I grabble with trying to grind now while my son is young versus missing out on the time I won't ever get back. I would love to just stay home with him every day, but financially that is not feasible. The "I have to get up every day" to go to work or school is becoming more and more difficult to ignore. It's like the meme, "I'm going to get this bread as your crying on your way to work." Yall know what I am talking about. Any selfcare opportunities are out the window right now, and how does anyone choose? Between sleep deprivation, weight gain, anger, depression, anxiety, lack of motivation, resentment, did I say anger, self-doubt, and guilt has made it hard to love myself. Burnout from life is real, and a bubble bath or sleeping in for one day is not going to fix it. At this point in my life, I don't really know how to fix it or when I will be able to pour back into myself so I can for others. I just want anyone out there just know you're not alone.

"When life gives you lemons, give them back because girl I need help not lemonade." -A